My name is Brandy and I'm a 21 year old college senior. This blog is about finding beauty within myself as well as trying to lose weight for health purposes. On top of that, it's about losing weight the right way. It's going to be a long, difficult road.
This is my life. This is my weight loss journey.
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Height: 5'8"
SW: 226 lbs
CW: 226 lbs
GW1: 215 lbs *Reward: New shirt*
GW2: 200 lbs *Reward: Tattoo*
GW3: 190 lbs *Reward: New dress*
GW4: 180 *Reward: New jeans*
GW5: 170 *Reward: New shoes*
UGW: 160 *Reward: New bikini*
Body Bliss
I keep saying, “I’m going to do it this time.” And then I don’t. I eat better, I exercise, etc. with no results. None. It’s times like these that make me rethink the decision to have my thyroid removed…and then I realize that I’d rather be fat and healthy than skinny and sick (if I still had my thyroid, that’s what I would be…skinny and very sick). I just….I want to get down to a healthier size. I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been and it’s so very discouraging. In three weeks, I will be traveling to seven different summer camps over the course of seven weeks. I’ll be sweating and exercising a LOT, but I’m terrified that I won’t lose weight. Last summer, I was outside in hundred degree weather every day doing the same thing, and I don’t think I lost much at all. It’s overwhelming to think about.
I’m not obsessed with it.
And I’m okay if I go over my daily limit.
But I’m really trying to limit my intake of food and eat on the healthier side. For example, today I went over my goal of 1300 calories a day. I know that that amount is on the low side, but I am limiting my caloric intake to begin with so that I can get used to eating smaller amounts of food. Also, that’s not quite the limit. Today, for example, my calorie limit was 1504 calories because I exercised very little, but I burned about 204 calories, so it’s added to my limit. Although I went over my calorie limit, this is what I ate today:
Lunch:
A chicken Caesar salad
A banana
Gatorade—fruit punch flavor
Dinner:
A chicken Caesar salad
5 mozzarella sticks
Pita Chips
A cup of sweet tea
Snack:>
Chocolate (because I’m on my period. Therefore, I deserve it!)
So, I consumed 1,905 calories today. Which is pretty good for me. Although I’m “counting” calories and I have a “limit,” my real goal is to not eat more than 2,000 calories a day. Of course there will be days when I go over that, but that’s okay. I just want to eventually make it a habit to eat smaller amounts of food more frequently.
This is why I have NEVER aspired to look like Barbie.If Barbie was an actual woman, she would be 5’9” tall, have a 39” bust, an 18” waist, 33” hips and a size 3 shoe.
• Barbie calls this a “full figure” and likes her weight at 110 lbs.
• At 5’9” tall and weighing 110 lbs, Barbie would have a BMI of 16.24 and fit the weight criteria for anorexia. She likely would not menstruate.
• If Barbie was a real woman, she’d have to walk on all fours due to her proportions.
• Slumber Party Barbie was introduced in 1965 and came with a bathroom scale permanently set at 110 lbs with a book entitled “How to Lose Weight” with directions inside stating simply “Don’t eat.”
i’m always reblogging this.
fucking barbie ..
wow
(via mysexisonfire14)
Fitness test on VirtuaGym: 15 minutes
March in place: 3 minutes
Windmills: 20 reps
Squats: 15 reps
Push-up with knees: 1
Side rotation: 2 sets of 10
Crunches: 1 set of 12 and 1 set of 10
Back-raise with hands on the ground: 1 set of 10 and 1 set of 6
March in place: 2 minutes
Total calories burned: 352
…since I’ve posted anything.
Truth is, I haven’t been keeping up with the eating healthy/exercising thing. It’s not that I don’t want to do these things, but it’s been extra difficult. The food in my school’s caf is getting worse, which means I have to result to fried food from the grill. On top of that, it’s cold and rainy so I have very little motivated. And I’m on my period so that kinda puts everything else to the side.
It’s been a REALLY rough week for me. :’(
I really miss being the size I was in the summer of 2008. That’s probably the smallest I’ve been in 8 years. Of course, my thyroid was overactive then and I look VERY sick. But my goal is to at least be able to fit into the clothes that I bought then and still have. Most of them hung on me when I was that weight and I’d be totally cool with them being a little snug.
The other picture is me during Spring Break. I’ve had that dress for two years now and it used to look so much different than it does now :/
Ugh. Enough with hating how I look now. I AM BEAUTIFUL, no matter what!
40 second plank
25 jumping jacks
40 minutes of yoga
- Be Here
- Hero Pose
- Hip Stretch
- Upper Body Stretch
- Mountain Pose
- Triangle Pose
- “Eagle” Balance Stretch
- Sitting Butterfly
- Downward Stretching Dog
- Spinal Twist
- Shoulder Stand
- Long Rest
The yoga was awesome! I did it in the lobby of the building I live in…so of course I got some funny looks, but it’s all good :)
Breakfast: nothing
Lunch: turkey and swiss on whole wheat bread, a few bites of asparagus (one of my favorite veggies, but it was poorly cooked), Caesar salad, vanilla yogurt with granola, a chocolate chip/m&m cookie, 2 sugar cookies, 2 glasses of water
Dinner: chicken patty sandwich with cheddar cheese, curly fries, Caesar salad, 3 chocolate chip/m&m cookies, 1 glass of mountain dew with ice
